CAN I GET OVER??
I traveled by train this Sunday from my house to tambaram. I felt something strange in my mind. I wanted to smash the whole train in to pieces. I hated and got angered when i saw people in groups. Wanted to kill them or burn them into ashes. There was so much hatred in my heart like never before. I was so silent and i was lonely. My mind wavered to so many things. I have never felt like this ever before in ma life. I tried to concentrate and find a solution “Y the hell am i like this???“. But all i ended up was in increasing the anger and hatred in my heart. The train then stopped at a station. I turned to my right to just look outside the window so that my mind changes track and i lose the hatred in my heart. And thus it happened. Everything changed. I sensed tears rolling down my cheeks. All the hatred in my heard vanished in a second and my heart was filled fully with love, affection and pleasant memories. The thing that is behind all these is MIT, my college. This happened just a day before i had to join my company eBay. Then i found the reason y i was like that in the morning I missed the train journey with my friends, the canteen chats, the corridor walks,the yellow flower trees etc etc. The first day in office i had to travel for 2 hours without speaking to anyone in bus and i felt much lonely than ever before in my life. Its really hard here my dear friends. I miss u all though i have certain people around me from ECE and our college to give company. But none can fill in your shoes. Love u all and miss u all. The only question that hangs over in my mind in CAN I COME OVER THIS??? Hopefully i over come this……
well an end is all a new beginning karthic…u l get used to this routine soon..this happens in everyone’s life!!!!
neeraja
July 2, 2008 at 3:22 pm
hmm karthick.. remember the first day we met in college..?? that very first day.. enakum ainga yarayum theiryadhu.. then slowly i got over it.. i simply wanted to get back to school the very first day.. but though.. it was a new kind of an exp. one fine day you will overcome this.. jus like i overcame from longing for my school.. meeting and parting.. is the way of life.. as the famous saying goes. jus remember this saying also.. ” We meet to make memories and depart to preserve them.” so now it is your turn to preserve your memories of MIT and make new memories in ebay.. cheerup boy..
yamini
July 2, 2008 at 4:32 pm
Each and every stage in our life is a lesson that we all should experience.U r already loaded with gem of people(friends), who knows u may add lots and lots of gem in the coming future.Loneliness is also good.Enjoy the essence of life.congrats for joining ur dream company……………..
kutty1986
July 2, 2008 at 4:54 pm
Dei..things change…make the best out of the new one…dont brood over the past…make another set of great memories…look fwd to it…life doesnt end here…move on da
RUUD
July 2, 2008 at 6:38 pm
hey karthic…we both think alike…though everyone says ‘lets try to get used to it’ n stuff each person longs for the past good memories in the corner o the heart…its difficult to get dem back…still v’l meet up often so tat v don miss frens n coll so much…best thing wud be makin coll our hangout place once in a while…who’s got th guts to ask us “get out” !! v r the proud alumni
wat say???
Aish
July 3, 2008 at 3:31 am
well said Aish…….
sachinsrini
July 3, 2008 at 4:39 am
Hmm…. u know… i never have this feeling.,.. may be i never will… i m from that lot of ppl who ve hated their college right from day one…. I ve always wanted freedom from my college coz u must be knowing how crucifying the colleges from our trust cud be , 3 months out of college… i m only rehabilitating myself… rebuilding the inner psyche… Good that U ve had a nice college experience.
Prabhu hari
July 3, 2008 at 4:25 pm
mokka naye…
ananth
July 3, 2008 at 5:24 pm
poda paye……..
sachinsrini
July 3, 2008 at 5:36 pm
Chewing the past memories with controlled emotions is always fine…
Use your biggest weapon.. Your ability to make friendship in no time
If u can make some indispensable life mates in 4 years, you can certainly in this long journey of professional career can make much more mates for you
Better your efforts in every step
Keep up your friens’s words :”Nee irukkum bodhu un friends ku lam enna karthik!!!”
I still remember those words that u quoted those words one day in bund
Make the statement true even for your office friends
Go ahead
Let your frienship juggernaut roll on forever
Badrinath
July 4, 2008 at 4:28 pm
yeah even I miss college.. happens., albeit anger doesn manifest itself in this situation. im sure i will be back bigger and better to this campus to give back to it. hope all who read the blog do that too. everything’s value is known only when you are deprived of it.
sreenath
July 4, 2008 at 5:26 pm
machi ….. so moved da… good one…. i was thinking of something else…. but it all ends up in thinking abt college…. no body can never forget those days da…. but yes indeed we need to come over that ….
raghav
July 5, 2008 at 4:25 pm
memories are the treasures that life has gifted us with….and fondest ones give real pain when u miss them a lot…why try to get over such pleasurable pains in life?????
Abinayaa
July 6, 2008 at 8:50 am
life goes on and on …. i hope wish and pray tat u get more n more friends at e bay …. lets put aside the glorious past and make the future a glorious one …
Sendil
July 8, 2008 at 6:17 am